If you can't be of the girl who loves you AND can't get the girl whom you love , the worst part of it is that people will start questioning - ' ARE YOU a gay ??? '. and the only reply u can come up with is - " FUCK you..... it was just another bad day , my destiny welcomed me with " .
One thing common about life and chappel's ( former indian cricket coach ) strategy is that , most of the time it will come just the opposite as you expected it to be . Though nature is too complex , it follows certain common rules and LOVE is no different . Well , never mind ; sometimes i am so cleaver that i too don't understand a single word what i am saying ..... :P
After my breakup with Pia , the only charm left in my life was kanu ( kaniska whom i affectionately call by this name ; but she still called me mridul rather maddy because affection was one sided only ) . A man is half way in love with a girl who starts listening him . Though it took me just 3 minutes to propose her after a few meetings , for the last 3 weeks she has kept me unanswered . well , this is the most frustrating phase of a lover's business . he is not assured anything and at the same time is not not expected to take chances elsewhere . but this wasn't applicable completely to my case as i didn't had many options (already tried most of them earlier and needless to say got screwed every time..........) .
Seriously , there was nothing in my head like backing off . My love now didn't followed the simple arithmetic that, i love you but you don't so there is no hope in loving you anymore . Rather it was like i love you because i mean it , and one day you will have to love me . i just turned 19 , that might be the reason why i believe in happy endings . whatever be the reason , one thing was damn sure that life without her would just be a set of metabolic processes with much of smoke and little interest .
I can't believe that , remembering of days when we laughed together could really make me cry someday . Why the hell is she not getting , i love her more than anything else in this world , even the double cheese pizza of domino's or even spicy pani - puri at nook corner . God knows , how ashamed i feel on facing myself in mirror . we lie to girls not because we want to , but actually we have no truths to tell for sustaining such long conversations . I hate sambar - vada ; feels like puking out on seeing it , but had to eat it ordering coconut chutney also because SHE LOVED IT . And after all this , if she replies that " i have always thought of you as a good friend of mine , nothing else " . you could easily understand how mush pissed off a guy can feel at this.
But a lover should never believe in letting things happen , rather he should try to make it happen.
Right now i have no plans but we people , from IT sector will never give up in trying to act smarter and look different . I must come up with some plan before she slams the door on my face . Do suggest something if you have any . "FAILING in love " is a topic in which people secretly do their research and never publish there research works - my father once told me looking at an old album of his college days . I really don't understood what he told then but now am getting what he meant .
anywayz just waiting for morning to meet kaniska again in college......gud n888....bbyee !!!!!
One thing common about life and chappel's ( former indian cricket coach ) strategy is that , most of the time it will come just the opposite as you expected it to be . Though nature is too complex , it follows certain common rules and LOVE is no different . Well , never mind ; sometimes i am so cleaver that i too don't understand a single word what i am saying ..... :P
After my breakup with Pia , the only charm left in my life was kanu ( kaniska whom i affectionately call by this name ; but she still called me mridul rather maddy because affection was one sided only ) . A man is half way in love with a girl who starts listening him . Though it took me just 3 minutes to propose her after a few meetings , for the last 3 weeks she has kept me unanswered . well , this is the most frustrating phase of a lover's business . he is not assured anything and at the same time is not not expected to take chances elsewhere . but this wasn't applicable completely to my case as i didn't had many options (already tried most of them earlier and needless to say got screwed every time..........) .
Seriously , there was nothing in my head like backing off . My love now didn't followed the simple arithmetic that, i love you but you don't so there is no hope in loving you anymore . Rather it was like i love you because i mean it , and one day you will have to love me . i just turned 19 , that might be the reason why i believe in happy endings . whatever be the reason , one thing was damn sure that life without her would just be a set of metabolic processes with much of smoke and little interest .
I can't believe that , remembering of days when we laughed together could really make me cry someday . Why the hell is she not getting , i love her more than anything else in this world , even the double cheese pizza of domino's or even spicy pani - puri at nook corner . God knows , how ashamed i feel on facing myself in mirror . we lie to girls not because we want to , but actually we have no truths to tell for sustaining such long conversations . I hate sambar - vada ; feels like puking out on seeing it , but had to eat it ordering coconut chutney also because SHE LOVED IT . And after all this , if she replies that " i have always thought of you as a good friend of mine , nothing else " . you could easily understand how mush pissed off a guy can feel at this.
But a lover should never believe in letting things happen , rather he should try to make it happen.
Right now i have no plans but we people , from IT sector will never give up in trying to act smarter and look different . I must come up with some plan before she slams the door on my face . Do suggest something if you have any . "FAILING in love " is a topic in which people secretly do their research and never publish there research works - my father once told me looking at an old album of his college days . I really don't understood what he told then but now am getting what he meant .
anywayz just waiting for morning to meet kaniska again in college......gud n888....bbyee !!!!!
it can be one and a half sided too.and i bet,thats more painful..
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